I guess I probably should have started this blog with my story, but I am still learning.
I am a middle child with two sisters. I grew up in Garfield, AR and really didn’t have much as a kid. My parents did the best they could with what they had. They argued a lot and I grew up in a very emotionally testing environment. My parents love me and my sisters very much, but they did not always love each other. My mother was never extremely healthy and struggled with confidence. So health and fitness was never really ingrained in me. I struggled with my weight and confidence throughout elementary, junior high, and high school. I continued to struggle with my confidence and various eating disorders. I never told my parents or sisters what was going on. I did not play sports and definitely never worked out. I HATED gym class and was relieved to be diagnosed with asthma so I could have an excuse for not participating. I was not lazy… I just didn’t understand the role that physical fitness and nutrition played. I would compare myself to everyone around me and really just didn’t like or love myself very much.
In college, I married young, 18! My lack of confidence and issues with weight did not improve. After my son was born, I was 22, I starved myself to loose the weight. When I would get so hungry that I felt weak, I would binge eat and then purge it. I was very unhappy with myself. My marriage was failing, I had very few friends, and it was a very low place in my life. The roller coaster continued until I found out I was pregnant with my second child. I did eat healthy during that time and took care of myself for the sake of my daughter. After she was born and I no longer was nursing I began looking for a different way to loose the weight and regain some sense of confidence. I did Cindy Crawford videos, Step Cardio, you name it… I did it. I started on the Slim Fast Diet and eventually I lost the weight, but still was lacking confidence. My marriage eventually ended and I felt like a failure as a mom, wife, and person. I gained a lot of the weight back.
I met a friend and he asked me to be a part of a co-ed adventure race with him and another guy. I explained that I did not run and was probably not the best person to ask. It sounded REALLY hard, but he said they knew I could do it. They wanted me on the team for my positivity and strength. Strength? What strength? Ha! I agreed and each time we trained I told them I understood if they wanted to get someone else. I was so slow. So out of breath. I couldn’t keep up! We didn’t win the race, but we formed a bond that can never be broken.
Fast forward 8 years, and I am now happily married to one of the guys on that team. He is my best friend and my strongest supporter. He had faith in me and saw something that I could not even see. I found myself in going to the gym and training. It was something I could control in a world where I felt everything had gone wrong and was out of my control. I am forever grateful to my friend, Jason Reynolds, for asking me to be a part of something that I didn’t think I could do. It was life changing. I have not had any issues with eating disorders since. It doesn’t mean that everything has been rainbows and butterflies, but I found an outlet through working out. When I work out, it isn’t about my outward appearance… it is an opportunity for me to test my body. To get stronger. I never want to be weak again and be a victim of my surroundings or circumstances. Working out and eating right have helped me to feel my best. I am healthier than I ever have been before and love myself.
That is why I became a Health & Fitness coach. I want to help others to be their best version of themselves. It isn’t about what the scale says or what size you are… those are just side effects of being a healthier you. I hope this gives you a little insight into who I am and what I am about.
Remember, you are stronger than you thought. You’ve got this!